Well what is mind ? Before I even attempt to discuss what mind is, I would like to start to talk about my experience. Although never officially diagnosed, I can say I've been battling / hiding depression for a long time. The irony is I'm in a helping profession.
I've seen therapists over the years but briefly as I never felt understood. Bottom line is I feel lonely and inadequate. So, I fill my time feeling bored, worthless and wanting better. My thoughts are often a blur and I resort to cigarettes and binge drinking on weekends, further perpetuating depression from worry about the potential damage to my health.
The thing is I work, am a slim tall good looking man, but what is it that constantly brings me down? My mind I'm sure, but then I don't have really close friends or for that matter even friend I see much. Wonder why I have a smart phone if no one texts me. My mind can't just manufacture close friends.
I'm sick of feeling like this- heaviness in chest, feeling limited and insufficient.....2/17
6/2/17 -So I've recently heard about schemas. Its given me a perspective to something I've known about myself - that I'm down a lot of the time. I feel deficient, inadequate, sorry for myself, that I've done something wrong generaly or in relation to what I"ve said or done. I keep quiet to avoid saying th wrong thing. My thoughts are all over the place. I try to meditate. It helps sometimes but is short lived. I'm looking for a solution.
